Episode 17: Being Suicidal

Merry meet and welcome to Episode 17! I'm hungover but couldn't resist recording for you, so hopefully it comes out well.

After a brief intro story-sharing about my weekend, including a trip to church for Compline, there's a break where I play Barenaked Ladies' War on Drugs. This is the intro to the first of a three part series on suicide.

In this episode I talk about being suicidal, including my own past experiences, some stats and some personal tips on how I handled it. NOTE: I am NOT a health care professional. This is my own experience.

Then we learn that this episode is brought to us by the Page of Shields and the rune stone Kenaz and hear a promo from The Infinite and the Beyond

We finish out with a Good Talk/Bad Talk segment, a Body Divine segment (which is intro'd by The Witch Dream by Brandon Moore from Music Alley) and a surprise final segment.

The last song of the night is also from Barenaked Ladies called Call and Answer.

Remember, look after yourself! Suicide isn't the easiest of topics, so if this episode disturbs you, please take care of yourself.

Blessings of the deep and wild to you,



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  • Kent

    I love you Saturn!

    Thank you for sharing so much of yourself and bringing light to a dark situation.

    XOX -K-

    Oct 13, 2010 at 6:55 am
  • Anon.

    Saturn: You’re so very brave. I have also been in the dark places you describe, but fortunately have made my way out! I am happy and healthy now, thanks to my friends, my therapist, and some meds.

    Love and peace to you.

    Oct 14, 2010 at 7:14 am
  • Gord

    Saturn! I’ve been listening to the podcast. Thanks for making it.

    The bridge referenced in War on Drugs is the Bloor Viaduct in Toronto. It was the 2nd most jumped-off structure in the world until they built the ‘Luminous Veil’ around 2000. Recent studies have shown while no one else has jumped off there, the net hasn’t reduced suicide. On the upside, not having people fall onto the freeways under the viaduct is a good thing.

    I really, really love that song.

    Oct 14, 2010 at 4:29 pm
  • Pombagira

    Ooo i will be downloading this when i get home.. currently i am at work, and *cough*writing an email the wellington witchy list, cause we had a coffee last night, and there was talk about most excellent pocasts.. *glee!*

    *skips about*

    Oct 14, 2010 at 5:49 pm
  • Echo

    Thanks for the courage to tackle such a deeply personal subject!

    Oct 16, 2010 at 7:05 am
  • penniesinthewell

    Hey, all, thanks for the comments! Strangely, it’s my pleasure to do this for the community. Rather like an offering of service, if you will.

    Gord, thanks for the info on the song! I couldn’t remember which bridge it was. I adore that song. So good.

    Oct 17, 2010 at 7:40 pm
  • Lizz

    Saturn, I couldn’t help but grin when you mentioned eating a bag of Doritos while sitting on your couch. I can’t remember how many emotionally filled time I’ve done that. I still have my own scars, on of which is covered by a small tattoo on my wrist. I can still see how close I came to hitting that vein.

    Anyway, I find that I am still fitting the battle against my depression and my current situation doesn’t help things, though I found strength in listening to this episode of your show. I have also discovered my sister’s neice has also become a cutter which, as I’m sure you know, is only one small step from being suicidal. I am in the process of trying to connect with the girl to help her work through her problems (abusive step mother).

    Blessings to you and your strength to openly talk about where you have been during your “dark” years.

    Mar 29, 2011 at 9:18 am
  • penniesinthewell

    Thanks, Lizz, and I hope you are able to reach through to your sister’s niece while still taking care of yourself. There are times I’ve really hated the battle with depression since it seems sometimes like it has an unending store of itself that it can send against any good mood I can conjure up. Dealing with the underlying issues has really helped with that, for me. I wish you the same kind of success! And the patience to get there. (I hate being patient lol)


    Mar 29, 2011 at 12:20 pm